Where do i begin?
At the Beginning!
The beginning is just a cycle of a End, another loop on top of the previous spiral.
Time loops upon itself as a tightly packed spiral, much like a slinky or spring.
When we say we’ve reached a ‘New’ level, i imagine it’s just that we’ve come around, full circle, and we’re directly on top of where we were, but we’ve ‘moved on’.
This is probably the best way i can find to describe where i am at the moment.
2010 is a Personal Year Number 1 for me. In numerology circles that represents a new beginning. Last year was a Number 9 Personal year, which involved letting go of a lot of things. The actual switch over occurred on my Birthday – March 22nd, and right now, just over a week later, i do feel as if i’m heading for new tracks.
Since moving back to Canberra just under a year ago, i’ve had a chance to revisit a lot of ‘old stuff’ i faced last time i lived here. I never imagined i would move back here, but alas this is how things have worked out. It’s funny, i have been tempted and faced with challenges that i didn’t ‘pass’ last time i lived here, however this time it’s been a no-brainer. That doesn’t mean i didn’t make mistakes, but it does mean i learnt, first time!
Things have been really good for me this time around. I’ve made some great friends, and have my own place. My business is flourishing, beyond anything i ever expected. I have freedom to do what i want, to work from home, when i want. I can come and go as i please.
For the past year, i’ve spend a good deal of every single day working on building my online businesses up. It’s become an obsession that i find difficult to let go of. In a way, it’s my ‘Baby’ and i care for it very much. Being self reliant, my own employer, and having employees brings about a responsibility to make sure everything is going right, smooth, and as best as it can. But there is a trick to running one’s own business, and especially if it’s from home. That trick, is balance.
I’m getting better at it. I now close the office door at night, switch off my computers, and that’s that. Most of the time 
I still have my iPhone which i occasionally check to see if i have any important emails. It’s a process i’m still learning, improving, and perfecting. Yep, i’m perfecting the art of not working. You heard it first, here
For the past two months i’ve felt a oncoming future that is very much different from my past. I can ‘feel’ timelines, and it’s a perception similar to one of visual colors and feelings. As i visualize my ‘timeline’ i can see different events occuring in the future. I know, it sounds far fetched, but this is just the beginning of the way i see things. I dream about people i haven’t seen in years, and they contact me the next day. I have co-incidences happen to me on such a regular basis that i don’t find it all that amazing anymore. Wierd shit happens, but it’s something i’m used to. I also believe this happens to other people, and it’s more a question of if they are open to perceiving it. Reality has this habit of forming what we expect, so perception is half the equation of manifestation.
Back to to the timeline… As i was saying, this timeline is much more colourful, different, intense and chaotic, in a beautiful way. I know that a lot of ‘stuff’ is going to happen, but without meaning to sound like some vague psychic, i cant’ say exactly what all this ‘stuff is’. I just know it’s there, it’s coming, and it’s different. Bring it on!
Soon my lease ends on my current place, and i’ll be looking for a house for myself. I want a room for my office, a bedroom, and another space for music making. Music is my future. It’s something that calls me, and i’ve been ignoring it. A few weeks ago i spent three thousand on a new electric guitar and tube amp, and recording software. I’m gearing up… Just today i was playing around with my acoustic maton steelstring plugged into this gorgeous tube amp. A new style is being born from learning technique on electric and then bringing that over to the powerful and emotive sounds a acoustic guitar can make. It’s exciting and i love giving into where ever the muse wants to take me.
New times are a coming. It’s inevitable, undeniable and completely intangible. But, in all honesty, i don’t think i’d have it any other way. Life is a freaking mystery, a road full of bends, hazards, wonders and surprises. I’m all fueled up and have got some tunes ready to crank out of the car stereo, it’s just a question of how fast i choose to drive
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I’m pretty in tune with this. Can’t put those things into words. Great stuff, man.
Thought you were putting some lyrics down for a new song at the start there. After finding the remnants of my brain that still existed I heard things were getting better by Moving to Canberra!
Say it isnt so, its so damn cold there. If you are doing well online I suggest you relocate somewhere north, and start surfing. All great musicians write there best material on the beach, everyone knows that.
Love the way you interpret the world around you. “Life” is merely an individuals interpretation of the world in which they exist.